I’ve been really busy with school that I can’t seem to find the time to update my tumbleblog. BUT there’ll be a long weekend this week so I’ll definitely find the time to change my theme and post A LOT. I shall practice my photoshop and HTML skills then. Well for now, I have to continue doing our paper. So yeah, tumblin’ next week. Ciao!

A relationship, once it’s broken, it can never be whole again. You can rebuild it. But it can never be the way it was anymore.

- Bulacan

- Zambales

- Bataan

- Palawan ♥

HELL. YEAH. I’M. SO. EXCITED. I. THINK. I. JUST. DIED. (Replaced Subic and CamSur with Palawan!)

Sometimes, try to fill in my shoes. Imagine what it’s like to be me. Think of how I feel. Consider the things that I do. Is that too much to ask?

“I’m never good enough.” – well, that’s one thing that I always hear from people.

From my own point of view, it isn’t a good idea to think of yourself in that manner. As for me, I don’t make myself responsive to criticisms. I live my life like the only ones who have the right to judge me are the ones who know me best. The past experience has always made me become the tougher person that I am at present. I’ve learned to surround myself with people who accept me for me and not demanding me to become like this and like that. What’s important to me is my family, my true friends and my studies. That’s all anything ever is for me.

The much-greater life is ahead of me and I might as well keep my focus to it now.

Every hardship is ideal because it challenges you in a different way.

Besides, diversity is truly essential.

It’s what keeps you from being dormant.

After two weeks of having sleepless nights and countless shitload of school works, I’m proud to share that I’m still occupied as ever.

Can I… Can I at least BRAG ABOUT MY ACAD STANDING? :)

Few notes that made me oh-so-delighted:

• Flat 1.0 in Law.

• Exemption for an exam.

• High grades in my subjects.

• Hell week survivor.

• Epic sleepovers.

• Awe-inspiring-talks-slash-superb-brunch-slash-wonderful-dinner-times.

• Ceasefire involving my goody-good friends.

• Breathtaking bonding moments.

• Never-ending chuckles.

Lezz move to the awkward side:

• Vanished wallet (includes my cards, photographs and other stuffs).

• Nerve-racking days.

• Languid professor.

• OODLES OF THINGS TO ACCOMPLISH.

• Exasperating people.

• Sluggish group mates.

• Cracked schedule.

What’s for the midterm period?

• Feasibility study.

• Marketing strategy and business plan.

• Tourism Plan.

• Seminars.

• Excursions.

• Tours.

• HOMEWORKSSS.

• PROJECTS.

• REPORTS? (Please, let’s skip this!)

• QUIZZES.

• EXAMS.

• Interviews.

Did I mention sleep? I bet not.

I feel so bad that I felt BAD from Monday until Thursday.

I SHOULD’VE BEEN MORE CAREFUL WITH MY JUDGMENTS. :)) OH WELL. Everything’s better now. WRONG REACTION. Kbye.

“Eh kasi naman kasi, hindi ka lang talaga niya nakita. At hindi mo kasi siya pinapansin! Ang arte mo talaga Lei.” I KNOW RIGHT? :))

Okay, I’m very much fine now. Thank you God! JUST FRIENDS. Good friends.

PS. Oh and by the way, seven down… one to go! Poor prelim grades because of depression? MORE LIKE A BIG NO. ;)

Who says jumping with both feet is terrible? Hey! ME.

I was terrified but then again, I wasn’t careful.

I’m sorry to declare that this won’t be a happy post. Well, I know I am ought to be studying right at this moment but I really can’t evade myself from pouring my heart out through this. It’s been eight months and up to this very day, I still can’t figure out the reason why I feel this way… I just do. Honestly, a thousand words can never describe how my heart breaks right now. Frankly speaking, I don’t know what to do to rescue myself from this feeling that I have. Crying was the last resort but yeah, I can’t stop. I feel so bad right now. I know I’ve been here before, I’ve done this and yet, I’m back, again.

How do you describe this status? Well, I can name this being stupid and reckless. I know a friend was right. Who am I? Why should I? DO I EVEN HAVE THE RIGHT? Oh yes, the fact lingers that I don’t and honestly, the truth hurts more than anything else. I KNOW I SHOULD’VE LISTENED TO THEM. This was my fault anyways but justly, I don’t have anyone to blame except for myself. Another friend was right. I pay attention to those who doesn’t, well, you know, give theirs’ and yeah, I always fail to give remarks to those who are really exerting an effort for me to notice them. How peculiar. Drastic. I know, this has gone way overboard and I’m sure that the only thing left for me to do is to stop thinking about it. Y’know, move forward; end the chapter, start a new one.

One thing that I’m still realizing about life is that… when something bad or good happens, the world would never give a damn. They would never care. LIFE WON’T EVEN STOP FOR YOU. Shit happens, that’s the reality. I say… do yourself a favor: FORGET AND BUDGE FORWARD. Drop the unpleasant feeling, live like you’ve never been hurt. Lastly, never let anything or anyone prevent you from being happy. Life’s tricky. Still… you should live it to its fullest.

Woah I’m so sorry I’m just being random right now. My best friend’s asleep now and I’m planning to share this ish with X and LA as soon as I talk to them. I don’t know why I spent my five minutes in ranting instead of continuing to do my tasks. OMFGLIKEHEAVENANDHELLCOMBINED.

Gaaah, I know. I’m crazy like this.

Crunch, where art thou? Just like that… game’s over. Expecting? NAH. More like disappointed.

Singapore.US. Singapore. France. US. Australia. US. Singapore. United Kingdom. US. Singapore. US. Singapore. US.

Oh yeah, Singapore.

I was eating breakfast this morning as I thought of my internship next year out of the blue. I know and I am aware that a few months from now, I have to deal with a lot of things already – particularly that internship thingy. I am so gripped with the future that I can’t hang around to experience a lot of things right away. I am awfully thrilled to graduate, can’t wait for my studies to come to an end and for me to finally become the person that I dreaming to be.

Last Thursday (Daddy’s birthday!), I attended our Practicum Orientation. There, I found out that new linkages were made with the other countries for our internship. I was so giddy when I saw that France is on the list, at last! OMGGG. My best friend and I gazed at each other like silly little girls. FRANCE - we both want to go there but for the sole reason that we don’t have any abroad experience yet, we immediately disregarded the idea of going there. Oh well, after college.

Anyway, it was declared that China, New Zealand, Australia, France, United Kingdom, UAE, and Switzerland are the countries that our school recently tied up with. Everyone got so excited upon hearing the announcement. Nevertheless, the school would be very strict now with the internship programs – like hell. There would be a panel interview which students are required to pass through. Our emotional and intelligence quotient will be tested; same goes with our English proficiency. Truly nerve-shredding for the reason that everyone is oblige to undergo that process before taking the practicum.

I’ve made this decision to go to the US from March until June. But then daddy didn’t approve. He told me to just go to Singapore instead since going to the US is not a joke. It isn’t actually about the money. In fact, my parents would like me to get the international practicum. It’s like I’m going to a war without even preparing for my ammunition. In spite of this, dad stated his reasons which I was able to eventually understand: I have to fight, alone. I have to face the world, alone. I have to handle problems, alone. Well, I don’t think I can manage any of those anytime soon. I previously told him that I’ll be leaving with my best friend, D. But still, he said no. Honestly, I’d love to fly to New York to meet new people; experience the American culture and for me to know how to live the fast-paced life in the Big Apple, the city of lights.

But yeah, I’m sticking with the Singapore plan. For six months, I will be staying in a foreign land – utterly electrifying yet challenging. Anyhow, I still have to prepare for my interviews, my passport and other documents that I will need for my application.

But prior to that, I have to get the GOLD SLIP! Without it, my international practicum won’t be possible. I guess I have to start reviewing for the major subjects that I already took like F&B, Barmngmnt, Hskpng, Frontoff, Trsm I&II and my other business subjects.

For the past weeks, ever since this semester started, I noticed that I don’t have much free time anymore. My daily routine went like this:

• I go to school.

• I arrive home late.

• I study/work on my endless school works.

• I sleep very late.

Sadly, I have to wake up so early. Indeed, I’m such a busy bee; a night-owl, in addition. I normally have brunch while studying yet I enjoy chilling at the restos and the coffee shops with my best friend. Free days like Wednesdays, Saturdays and Sundays aren’t really my free days. I continuously have things to do – I never had a day without doing anything. Still, I constantly have my OH-MY-GOD-I’m-pressured-times. D even complains on how I get so overwrought while doing our school works. Eh, what can I do? I feel like time is passing by so fast! Well, I know stress is written all over my head and there’s nothing much that I can do about it – not even complain. Just the verity that I know that the good life is ahead of me is sufficient for me to strive further. I think I just need to put my best foot forward – permanently. As I look back, I believe that I’m very much changed from what I used to be in the past. I’m truly quite startled with myself.

And y’know what? I love the fact that I’m actually on the rise! ♥

dreamsandbutterflies~

17. #youaremybestfriendbecause One hug from you is worth 10000000 from any other friend.

16. #youaremybestfriendbecause You know my dark side and I know yours. No judgments.

15. #youaremybestfriendbecause When I’m procrastinating hopelessly, you give me the push I need to get going.

14. #youaremybestfriendbecause I never felt that any of our arguments or disagreements would end our friendship.

13. #youaremybestfriendbecause No one else gives me the total attention you do, when I have a problem or just need to talk.

12. #youaremybestfriendbecause I’m not embarrassed to cry in front of you.

11. #youaremybestfriendbecause You make room for me in your life, even when your life is crowded and busy.

10. #youaremybestfriendbecause You bring your problems to me and let me help you solve them.

9. #youaremybestfriendbecause You stop me firmly when I start apologizing for things that aren’t my fault.

8. #youaremybestfriendbecause You send me encouraging text/tweet at critical moments and I send them to you, too.

7. #youaremybestfriendbecause Sometimes we’re under a lot of stress and we snap at each other.

6. #youaremybestfriendbecause You think I’m smart, capable, clever and pretty. You’re my one-woman cheering section.

5. #youaremybestfriendbecause If I’m way out of line, you tell me. And when I’m doing a good job, you tell me that too.

4. #youaremybestfriendbecause You’re honest but tactful. Usually.

3. #youaremybestfriendbecause I’d trust you with my life and you’d trust me with yours.

2. #youaremybestfriendbecause When I’m really down you cry with me.

1. #youaremybestfriendbecause I can tell you anything and you won’t be shocked.